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Suckage!

The past 2 days have been a revisions marathon for me. Unfortunately I now have to put it aside. For people with "normal" jobs who work Monday through Friday, the weekends hold the promise of relaxation, family get-togethers, special outings, and--if you write--two days of blissfully hammering away on a keyboard.

I, on the other hand, have to work this weekend. This involves falling out of bed at 5:30 a.m. in order to be at work at 7. Saturdays are the worst. I sleep poorly when I know I have to get up in the morning, and, when I do, I'm pretty worthless till 9 a.m. or so. I stumble in and slug coffee non-stop. I struggle not to fall asleep in report. I'm grouchy, I can't tolerate any noise, and nine times out of ten I go to work with a headache. My coworkers know this. They don't expect chipper. They don't even expect nice.

Sundays are somewhat better.

But not much.

To be perfectly honest, working weekends is not that big of a deal. It's not like I have such an incredible social life. The people I work with are great, plus they share my sense of humor. We usually have fun. The days often fly by. It's just a matter of...well, getting there. Tomorrow morning all I will think about is how I really, really don't want to be there.

How I resent every minute I'm away from my writing.

How I know that, when I do get home in the afternoon, I'll be too tired to shower, let alone work on a novel.

And how--because I'm also working Monday--I won't have any time to write till Tuesday.

Three.

Whole.

Days.

But after two 8-hour days of intense revisions, three days away from the computer may be exactly what I need. I've gone through the ms and competed the simple stuff, thank goodness. Everything else from now requires a lot of cutting and a lot of rewriting. It's not something I can do day in and day out. When I'm writing something new, I establish a pace and I hate when that pace is interrupted for any length of time. With revisions, however, I need to go slowly. I have to let the changes brew for a while, return to them, look them over, and decide if I've made the piece better or worse. Today, in fact, near the end of my stretch, I spent 45 minutes rewriting a passage--and then, mortified, I promptly deleted it.

Why? 

Because it sucked.
 
I'd been working so long and so hard, I'd gotten to the point where I was churning out suckage, mistaking it for brilliance. Lucky me, I recognized it in time.

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Word to the wise: sometimes suckage serves a very good purpose: it tells us it's time to take a serious break. :)


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jbknowles
Feb. 19th, 2011 02:42 am (UTC)
Having just survived the freelance job from hell, I can totally relate.

You are such an AMAZING writer. I love your work and I love your blog.

:-)
onegrapeshy
Feb. 20th, 2011 10:40 pm (UTC)
Thank you, Jo. And the feeling, as you know, is absolutely mutual! xx
njnelson
Feb. 20th, 2011 09:44 pm (UTC)
Oh, to be churning out anything sounds good to me right about now. I loved your description of being useless at work 'til 9am, slugging coffee! Hope you're having a good break from your ms revisions :)
onegrapeshy
Feb. 20th, 2011 10:40 pm (UTC)
Ew, I barely survived the weekend. !!!
edgyauthor
Feb. 21st, 2011 09:24 am (UTC)
Sucks how you had to work this weekend, but hopefully it was the "break" you needed to return to your manuscript with fresh eyes! :)
onegrapeshy
Feb. 22nd, 2011 03:04 pm (UTC)
Yep, and today is the day. :) Halleluia!!
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