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It's after 3 a.m. and yes, I'm awake. Don't ask.

Well, okay ask.

I woke up (on the couch) when Elijah (who believes he's entitled to snuggle up against me all night...which, I suppose, is my fault for letting him) shoved me off the side when he stretched out his legs. I'd like to believe he was simply stretching. That he didn't intend to knock me off so he could have the whole couch to himself. After un-wedging myself from between the couch and the coffee table, I realized my head was pounding--not a good sign when I wake up with a headache because that's when it usually turns into something more fierce. So I took something for pain and signed onto the computer.

Nate, the skulking vampire, also awake at 3 a.m.: "Yanno, staring at that screen in the dark is only gonna make your headache worse." Thank you, sweetheart. xox Go to bed now and leave Mommy alone before she takes a chunk out of your leg.

What I was thinking of is this: you know how you sometimes go to bed and dream entire novels? You are not even in them, which I find amazing. These are fully plotted stories with intricate twists, detailed characterizations, LOTS of drama and action, and the wittiest dialog ever. Sometimes you wake up laughing.

Or slick with terror, if it's one of those novel.

But you do wake up, at or near the end, and stare through the dark thinking: OMG, that was the Best Story Ever! I can't believe it! I have to write this down. It's perfect. FREAKIN' BRILLIANT!

Then you fall back asleep, because even if you do--as you've been encouraged to for years by your fellow writers--keep paper and pencil at your bedside for this very occasion, you're too tired and/or lazy to move that far. Or you simply and automatically fall right back to sleep through no fault of your own. Regardless, that magical moment passes. When you wake up a second time, even if you remember the dream, the rich details of that story have already faded from your memory.

You kick yourself all day long for letting it slip through your fingers.

And, weeks later, at 3 in the morning, you wake up with a headache after your dog kicks you off the couch, and you blog about it. :)


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jbknowles
Feb. 8th, 2011 12:12 pm (UTC)
I have these dreams too!!!! And I have never once written them down for all of the above reasons.

I haven't been kicked out of bed by my cats yet, but they've come close.
onegrapeshy
Feb. 8th, 2011 12:16 pm (UTC)
Too bad we can't rig up some kind of brain-wave recorder.
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onegrapeshy
Feb. 9th, 2011 03:59 pm (UTC)
Somethng tells me there's a lot of this going around. :)
lalam
Feb. 9th, 2011 02:11 pm (UTC)
I dream books all the time. I plot books in my head just as I'm falling asleep and of course forget everything that I plotted in my head once I've fallen asleep. I hate this!
onegrapeshy
Feb. 9th, 2011 03:59 pm (UTC)
I know, right? It's like: WHY CAN'T I THINK OF THIS STUFF WHEN I'M AWAKE?
shoebrera
Feb. 10th, 2011 03:20 am (UTC)
You've made me even more grateful there's a tape recorder next to my bed.
onegrapeshy
Feb. 10th, 2011 11:22 am (UTC)
Now there's an idea!
edgyauthor
Feb. 10th, 2011 07:19 am (UTC)
I often dream up novels, too--or, at the very least, dream up scenes that would be great to include in novels! I hardly ever write them down, though, unless it's time for me to wake up, anyway. (And even then, sometimes I don't, haha.) I have a hard time sleeping, so if it looks like I can easily slip back into slumber by NOT writing notes, that's what I always choose to do, hoping I'll be able to remember the amazingness in the morning. (I think you can guess how that turns out. XD)
onegrapeshy
Feb. 10th, 2011 11:23 am (UTC)
LOL...yep. :)
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